Thursday, May 29, 2014

20 Days


It's been 20 days since my divorce. I thought I would be sitting here dwelling on the end. I thought that having it be final would make everything surface like I was back at the beginning where I was 2 years ago. 

And maybe I would have. EXCEPT! God came through for me. In less than an hour of walking out of the courthouse, I got the very exciting news that I am an auntie again!

My first niece, Parker Joelle, was born May 9th. I forgot I was having a bad day as I fell in love with her. Completely totally in love. 

Less than a year ago, we didn't know if my mama would be here the next day, much less to meet her 3rd grandchild. This picture is so special. I pray she is still around to hold each of my children as well. 



Prissy is pretty smitten with her too and loved to play / sing her to sleep. 




And just like that, the one that made me an Auntie, sweet baby Anderson as we call him, is a big brother and looks so much older!


My heart is so full and happy. I have no time to linger on all the bad when I have so.much.good!

Saturday, May 10, 2014

The End


Yesterday, I made the trip back to Panama City, a trip I haven't made since I packed our things 2 years ago. Right there, on the 3rd floor, I sat across the table from my husband and ended a marriage I thought would last forever. There wasn't much talking, we didn't fight, it was almost too simple. 

Is your marriage irretrievably broken?
Yes. 
Is there anything this court can do to save your marriage?
No. 

And just like that, next thing I know I will be mailed a final divorce decree. 

Later that day I glanced at my timehop app and saw this:
4 years ago at that very moment we were just a few blocks away from that courthouse celebrating my first Mother's (to be) Day. So happy and unsuspecting. We had no idea what was to become of our little family. No idea ...

Speaking of our little family... Walking in the door to Miss Priss after our hearing was a very strange feeling. She saw me, smiled real big & came running to me arms wide open yelling "da da da da!" (Her speech disorder is to blame. I swear I don't want to be called dada. She says her M's like D's) I just fell to my knees and hugged her tight. She had no idea what a big deal that morning was in her little life. I'm so thankful she is young enough to not fully grasp what is going on, but I felt a need to tell her something. I felt like she deserved a conversation. I spent all day trying to think what I say to a 3 year old. At the end of the night, when we laid in bed all I could come up with was "Today was a big day. Your mama loves you so very much & is here to answer questions when you're ready" to which of course she responded with the same question she always has "can we go swing & get donuts tomorrow?"

And so life goes on as normal. 

My friend sent this text and I thought it was perfect to what I was feeling. She is always spot on:

WOO HOOOOOOO!!! Gosh I bet you are having one big deep breath for a sigh of relief. 

"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." -2Tim 4:7

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

May: Brain Cancer Awareness Month

You all know my mom has brain cancer. Right now, there is no cure, she is treating it but we know that we will not get to use words like "healed, remission, cured". She is strong, stronger than I am.

I will be honest, before her diagnosis, we knew very little about the type of tumor she has. In fact, I still find myself overhwhelmed with information. There are so many variables and different types that it really is hard to put it in a nice little bow and "sum it up" in simple terms.

I encourage you to educate yourself though. Pay attention to your body, don't waste time, don't hesitate to call a doctor, or even 9-1-1 if something feels "off".

Photo: Did you know May is Brain Cancer Awareness month? My mom is still fighting the fight & we are selling these bracelets for $3 (shipped) in her honor. All $$ will go towards her bill at Emory. If you would like one, Email Facebook Twitter or comment here with your paypal email. It's a simple gray band with her name & ribbon on it.

To donate to my mom directly-
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During treatments, my mom stayed at the Winn Dixie Hope Lodge in Atlanta. This facility runs solely on donations and is a literal life saver to so many people from all over the WORLD! This is where we are directing our donations from now on.

To donate to the NBTS in a fight for a cure. Go here.

Friday, May 2, 2014

Go Away

It has to be said. Go away ... 

Pom Poms are great. Everyone loves florals. I have no problem with shorts. But seriously? These are awful. So very bad. Y'all, stop wearing these. The cut is an awful vagina frame. Who wants that much attention on your business? It's not cute. Go away!

Even if you wear the stupid vagina shorts, I think we are all on the same page about this. Pooping toys? No. Dogs, babies, chickens and pigs on keychains- they all poop. I'm sick to death of poop. Go away!

I know I'm just being moody now. But come on. I grew up on the world's most beautiful beaches. Sand happens. This is just 1 more annoying thing to keep up with. Also? The "keep calm" thing... Can we be done with it too? Go away!

Let's talk about it. I know I'm forgetting a million things that need to go away. What else are you so not in the mood for?
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